I'm done... and I need some help

AF showed up today. I'm done with the drugs. I've just had enough. They make me feel completely horrible and it's just not worth it. So we are looking into adoption again.

The adoption we had started isn't going to happen. Paperwork will expire before anything can be done.We knew that was going to happen.But I found 2 children in a different Eastern European country and after sending a few emails, it looks like we should be able to get the paperwork portion done before Eric leaves and he should be home before we would get a court date. And just incase he's not, this country only requires one parent to travel.We are going to have to rush through some of the paperwork to get it done while Eric is still here (there are a few things that he has to be physically present for, so a POA won't work).

Money is going to be very hard to come up with so I'm going to try to get some fundraisers going again. If any of you have old cell phones that you don't use, or printer ink cartridges that are empty, I can send them in and recieve money for them. Or if anyone wants to take up a collection, I can send you a prepaid shipping label to send them in for us.

If anyone wants a new magazine subscription or needs to renew an old subscription, buying them through www.magfundraising.com/ChristensenAdoption will save you money on the subscription, plus 40% of what you spend will go toward our adoption expenses.

Also if you go to www.currentfun.com , they have a lot of interesting things to buy (household items, magazines, cards, flowers, cookie mix, candies, snacks, and lots of other things). We will also recieve part of the profits from anything you buy from that website.
If you do choose to shop there, there are certain things that you have to enter in the check out process.
The Organization's state is North Carolina
On the next page you choose the organization.
Scroll down until you find "Meredith and Eric Christensen."
Then you just proceed through the checkout like normal.

If anyone is interested in helping out in anyway please let me know. Or if anyone has any fundraising ideas, let me know.

Still Waiting...

I'm now on CD 31, and still no sign of AF. I have no idea what's going on really. I had some EWCM on CD's 18 and 19, so I may have O'd CD 19, instead of CD 14 like I thought. I guess I have a few more days to wait and see what happens. I would think AF would be here by Sunday if I O'd on CD 19. I have one test left and I don't want to spend the money on more, so I'm going to try to wait until Sunday to test. The only chance we'll have after this is April. Eric will be gone most of Jan., Feb., and March. That gives me a few months to prepare myself for another month of this. After he leaves.... I'm done. I'm so tired of feeling so horrible all the time. If I'm not pg while he's gone, I'm going to take those 7ish months to get myself back in shape and healthy and then we'll adopt when he gets back. I hate the way these drugs make me feel (physically and emotionally) and I'm just done. It's not worth being miserable all the time. But, we shall see what happens in the next few days. I don't think I'm pg, I don't feel pg. Who knows...