Boy am I glad it's cold outside!

I'm starting to feel the effects of the clomid. I hated being on the lupron when it was hot out, there was absolutely no relief from the hot flashes (other than standing with the freezer door open). With it being cold outside I can walk outside in a t-shirt and cool off real quick.

If this is what the hot flashes were like last time I was on this medicine... I was a WIMP! This is unpleasant, but NOTHING compared to the Lupron. The only time it's really an issue is at night when I'm fighting for space from Eric and the dogs. I like to cuddle with them, but they make me really hot and then I'm stuck between them with no way out. The rest of the day, if I'm wearing a sweatshirt I'll have a hot flash, but if I'm in a t-shirt I'm fine 99% of the time. If it was the middle of the summer, I'm sure I'd probably have more issues. Thank God for winter... now if only it would snow!

I've also been getting dizzy, which I don't remember happening last time. It doesn't last long, just short dizzy spells, but it worries me a little since I do so much driving for work. Oh well... gotta go to work, not much I can do about it.

Progress!!

AF finally showed up today. Meaning that I ovulated during the week that Eric was on the boat... that is so my luck. But I will be starting my clomid on Friday. Eric's schedule is light through December, they aren't going anywhere so I think this will be our best chance. Starting in January he's going to be all over the place and I don't know how often he'll be home at the right time of the month. I'm still trying to convince him to put some "swimmers" on ice before he leaves so I can do IUI with them after he's gone. That way everything will be timed correctly. We'll see if that actually happens though.

But, we are moving forward... finally!

Hurry up and Wait...

I went back to see my doctor yesterday and we discussed the options that we have at this point. She had mentioned using Femara this time instead of Clomid, so that is the expectation I had going into the appointment. But... since I did ovulate each month when I was on the Clomid she thinks it's a good idea to try the Clomid again. I did get pregnant before with the Clomid/Metformin combination, so hopefully it was the endometriosis that caused me to miscarry and now that we've treated it things will go better. I'm not looking forward to being back on this drug. It means more hot flashes and mood swings, but hopefully it will all work out this time.

I have to wait for my period to start before I can get started on the clomid again. I really have no idea when that will be happening. I have no way of knowing exactly when the Lupron wore off, so I just get to sit around and wait it out.

Lupron shot 4/4

I'll be getting my fouth and final lupron injection on Wednesday. I can't even begin to explain to you how excited I am to be finished with this drug. I've got about 4 more weeks of side effects to deal with, but the end is in sight. I'm ready to take some steps forward instead of just being in menopause and miserable. It's such a strange feeling to be getting closer to getting back to TTC. It's been such a crazy year and a half since I miscarried. I struggled with depression for a few months following that, then I had the laproscopy which gave us some more answers. The first time I started the Lupron it was just awful. I had so much stress in my life still, that I just couldn't handle it. The last 3 months haven't been fun, but I have reduced my stress and I'm doing better.

It's frightening to know that in a month I'll be out of menopause and able to TTC again. It has almost been a relief to KNOW for the last few months that there was no chance to get pregnant. No hopes of a positive test, and no fears of the disapointment of a negative. The home pregnancy test companies are probably starting to struggle without all of the business I usually give them. LOL. Soon I'm going to have those chances and fears back. They pushed the MEU back until May, so we'll have about 6 months before Eric deploys to try and get pregnant. Hopefully it won't take that long, although I'm not thrilled about the possiblity of having a baby while he's gone, but that's military life...

Welcome

I wanted to have a separate place to put our TTC news, away from the adoption news. They're both part of the journey toward having a family, but are very different experiences, so I wanted them each to have their own place.

I don't have anything new to report at this point. I will be getting my 4th and final Lupron shot next week and then the fun will begin.